Great Love.

I love this community. Thank you God for the blessing of getting to know the people of our community at site one, their abounding love that comes straight from you and nowhere else. We praise you for the protection and hope you give us in each hug, prayer, smile and piece of wisdom.

I feel like I am stuck in neutral.

We are no longer living at the house in Juarez indefinitely as far as the greaterworks year goes. For now we are staying at Grandview Church in El Paso in these weird bunk rooms they are letting us use. It is a little weird. I don't know how I really feel about it. I mean I say that because I feel so disconnected from Mexico. We only go for ministry and then we come back. It is this weird "visiting" type feeling. I already miss the feeling of living IN mexico. It is weird how quickly you can begin to feel at home somewhere. I miss our roach/mosquito house with the crazy high bunk bed, cracked windows, water that turned off atleast once a week, dogs hanging out on our porch, smells like pollution all the time house. It was home already. But not anymore. I hope I can start to make this feel like home too. I won't lie I am having a rough week regarding energy. There have been a lot of changes and a lot to process. I have needed a lot of alone time and a lot of reading nad escaping to not go insane. Thats how I handle things I guess. God is good though.. he is pulling and pulling on me to get closer to him, to depend on him and his hands to guide the way.

Due to unforeseen and currently unmentionable events...

I am in El Paso.. for the third day. Yikes..

I can't give a way too many details but I'll try to atleast explain the basics..

We have had some issues with security at our house in Juarez. Apparently people (including the bad ones) know we live there (15th year here.. a bit obvious), know we have access to a plethora of trucks, computers, money belongings, passports, and that we are American (thus easy gleaming white targets.. well I am anyway.. the others can pull off the brownness better..)

SO.. after a certain unpleasant even occurs.. which I will relate as soon as we decide what the limitations and necessities are of the situation.. we had to stay in el paso for a few days only to go back to get our house locks changed (keys were taken in said event) and to pick up personal items. Becky and I had been in El Paso after a relaxing day of studying in the midst of a movie when we got the call. "stay in El Paso.. we'll meet at the econolodge and figure it out from there"

SO here we are. Its Monday.. I would typically be headed to the Costura to work with Peggy, Lynn and the ladies today.. but it is not so.

Possibilities:
We might not live at the site one house anymore
We might move to another site OR into El Paso

Opinions:
I hate that we would have to move from site one on many selfish notes such as the fact that we just got settled, and it is walking distance to 3 out of 4 of my ministries
I do think it has been unsafe for us in the sense that people know we are there and that we "have" more than most, plus we don't have anywhere to pull our cars in so we have to park at the bottom of a hill and walk up.. not safe.
I don't like the idea of moving out of Juarez.. BUT I feel comfortable enough in El Paso now with the bus system that it wouldn't be horrendous to walk across and catch a bus (not the juarez buses.. thats not a good choice)

Anyway.. we'll see what happens.

La Costura ... Mondays at Women with Hope