I feel like I am stuck in neutral.

We are no longer living at the house in Juarez indefinitely as far as the greaterworks year goes. For now we are staying at Grandview Church in El Paso in these weird bunk rooms they are letting us use. It is a little weird. I don't know how I really feel about it. I mean I say that because I feel so disconnected from Mexico. We only go for ministry and then we come back. It is this weird "visiting" type feeling. I already miss the feeling of living IN mexico. It is weird how quickly you can begin to feel at home somewhere. I miss our roach/mosquito house with the crazy high bunk bed, cracked windows, water that turned off atleast once a week, dogs hanging out on our porch, smells like pollution all the time house. It was home already. But not anymore. I hope I can start to make this feel like home too. I won't lie I am having a rough week regarding energy. There have been a lot of changes and a lot to process. I have needed a lot of alone time and a lot of reading nad escaping to not go insane. Thats how I handle things I guess. God is good though.. he is pulling and pulling on me to get closer to him, to depend on him and his hands to guide the way.